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Time Encapsulated

A collection of my 2013. Inspired by Jasmine, and in conjunction with: Jasmine Audrey Loren

Everything is a learning experience.

Maybe this is teaching me how I have made others feel in the past, and for that I sincerely apologize. I’m currently learning how to be a better person.

Positivity.

I’ve been going through some weird, tough, times and a lot of my friends have, too (some that are infinitely worse than mine—major props to you guys for being so strong). Hang in there and here’s some of my favorite motivational music (thanks to Loren for the awesome advice): 

The Script-Hall of Fame

Demi Lovato-Skyscraper

Kelly Clarkson-Stronger

Sara Bareilles-King of Anything

Andy Grammer-Keep Your Head Up

Orianthi-Courage

Finally, Keep Holdin’ On (Avril Lavigne), and Oath (Cher Lloyd), a message for everyone in my life :)

Happy Sunday! 
Strawburriessssss
Taken at a farmer’s market in Santa Monica, CA January 20, 2013

Happy Sunday! 

Strawburriessssss

Taken at a farmer’s market in Santa Monica, CA January 20, 2013

2/21

I feel it. 

The chasm growing between

Yesterday and today, 

Real and plastic,

You and me.

A past mistake,

The forced repetition of

Muddled thoughts,

Falling tears,

Fear.

Stabbing, slicing, 

Gutting me to the core.

Self induced, hopelessly ineffective change—

The last song without an encore,

The last breath of a man destined to drown.

Footsteps echo off uncaring floors,

Their stone faces refusing to reflect betrayal,

Leaving me

Alone.

Why do we have to look so hard to find ourselves?

Reminiscing. I miss you girls!

North Shore, Oahu; December 2012.

A summary of my thoughts

  • Trying to figure out the meaning behind my dream last night
  • Just had a good conversation with my roommate about this, but I’m learning a lot about myself and my personality during my first year of college—I’m SUCH an introvert. I don’t have as many friends as my peers, nor do I make good friends as quickly, and I need to accept that about myself. 
  • New Year’s Resolutions part 2: get healthy, read and write more, drink more water, take some alone time every now and then, do things that make me happy, be more independent, embrace my flaws and be more self-confident.

So, this didn’t go as planned.

I obviously haven’t been posting every day of 2013; I think I gave up some time mid-January. But, I really liked this blog as a semi-anonymous outlet and slightly forced creativity generator, so, although things are about to get ten billion times more hectic school-wise, I’m going to vow to post on here hopefully (but probably not) every day, and if not, as much as possible. I’m definitely posting significant events or feelings so that, in a year, I can successfully reflect on all the good and bad of 2013. Here’s to a great 10 and 1/2 months. 

To all of you…stay strong and I believe in you <3

Top of the world

Top of the world

Happy birthday to Taryn, one of the greatest girls I know! Friends for 7 years and counting ❤

Happy birthday to Taryn, one of the greatest girls I know! Friends for 7 years and counting ❤

I think I’m scared. Scared to trust, scared of the comments, and scared to lose all that I’ve built with one wrong decision.

Already missing this.

Already missing this.

Everybody has to leave, everybody has to leave their home and come back so they can love it again for all new reasons.

I think I procrastinate so much while packing because I don’t want to accept the fact that I’m leaving soon.